By Meghan '12 | April 30, 2011
Okay, I’m pretty sure I’ve used that as a subject on a post before, but I don’t care, I’m anticipatory!!
Today I was able to see one of my good friends that I haven’t seen in a long time. It was really nice to be able to catch up with her and just chat about life. It’s made me realize that I haven’t really talked to a person in a long while. And I don’t mean talk as in, ya know, talk, but in the way where you really get to speak your mind and heart. I’m so used to making small talk and friendly chatter with people that I almost forgot what it’s like to really be able to have a deep conversation with someone. It’s really made me reconsider how I’ve been spending my time.
Now, I know I say this a lot, but I feel like life is just whizzing past me. I hope once school is over, I won’t feel this way anymore. I think the deadly combination of school and work has caused me to have such limited free time which then gets allocated to chores, homework, and rest. I miss spontaneity and excitement. I miss late night walks and chats with friends and just the interesting things that make a person feel like they’re really living. If I’m not at school, I’m at work and if I’m not there, I’m doing homework in my room.
I want to have the time to take my dogs on walks. I want to have the time to clean my room! I want to have the time to mail my grandpa’s CHRISTMAS present. Maybe it sounds like a poor excuse for laziness, but I have literally tried to make time for those things and have fallen behind in my other work. It doesn’t help either that the only times I’m in my house seems to be when the sun isn’t out. I miss having my meals at home and being with my family.
When school’s over, that will free up some time in regards to both not having school and rearranging my work schedule. I feel bad; work has done so much for me in terms of me coming and going, but I’m starting to really consider asking for less hours. I like my job, but I don’t exactly have the free time to work on homework. If I thought this semester was a rough workload, I am worried for fall. I am taking an additional class and one of them is the writing of my Senior Thesis for the Honor’s Program. It’s going to take a lot of work to balance the responsibilities I will be taking on next semester….and I’m starting to think working almost 30 hours a week is proving more detrimental to myself than helpful. Oy vay.
Anyways, it’s almost summer, what am I fretting about?! Starting in 2 weeks, I have 3 months to figure out my next action. I just can’t wait to actually have time and motivation again. I can’t wait to see my friends and do exciting things! It’s all so close, but yet so far! But, guys, WE HAVE (pretty much) MADE IT! I can’t believe I’m 2 short weeks away from being a SENIOR at college! One year left until the “real world.” Eep!!
Until Later (!)